How Bad Do I Want It?
How bad do I really want your revelation, Lord? It is like life to me. It transforms all the regularity and boringness into light, power, and motion. To see you, to know you, to hear from you is the only thing that truly feeds my soul. But do I cry out to you like the prophets? Jesus, am I like you interceding for your people with loud cries and tears? Would I be willing to seek you from morning till evening and through the watches of the night?
Why do these obstacles get in my way? I am embarassed by the indignity and surrender of passionately calling on your name. We cannot find you unless we come on our knees, humble, weak, pathetic. Not because you seek grovelers, but that is simple honesty. Unless we know ourselves authentically, we are not ready for intimacy in our relationship with you -- we cannot know you authentically.
But I would rather seek your face as a friend and equal. "I'll meet you for coffee and you can give me some cool imagery, a couple of catch phrases and a few suggestions." But your glory and you Kingdom are not coffee table conversation. When we truly encounter your glory, it will take our breath away, we will fall on our faces as if we are dead. Dignity will give way to joy. Self-confidence and competence to empowerment and inspiration.
Elihu once told Job that we do not hear or see you because we do not wish to. I suppose the revelation I've been asking for is all around me all the time. I do not see it because I refuse to enter that world. I do not see because still, deep within, I would sign my own byline to your words and apply them selectively.
Why do these obstacles get in my way? I am embarassed by the indignity and surrender of passionately calling on your name. We cannot find you unless we come on our knees, humble, weak, pathetic. Not because you seek grovelers, but that is simple honesty. Unless we know ourselves authentically, we are not ready for intimacy in our relationship with you -- we cannot know you authentically.
But I would rather seek your face as a friend and equal. "I'll meet you for coffee and you can give me some cool imagery, a couple of catch phrases and a few suggestions." But your glory and you Kingdom are not coffee table conversation. When we truly encounter your glory, it will take our breath away, we will fall on our faces as if we are dead. Dignity will give way to joy. Self-confidence and competence to empowerment and inspiration.
Elihu once told Job that we do not hear or see you because we do not wish to. I suppose the revelation I've been asking for is all around me all the time. I do not see it because I refuse to enter that world. I do not see because still, deep within, I would sign my own byline to your words and apply them selectively.
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